Today has been ABSOLUTELY gorgeous!!! It is one of those days that lets you know Fall is coming...it's in the air. A cool breeze all day long with bright sunshine. Theres also a smell in the air, almost like dried leaves or something (maybe it's cause we haven't had rain in such a long time?). Whatever it is, it's a lovely smell, invigorating!
So, today I woke up and got all my baby pigs ready to take to town and try to sell. There was supposed to be a city wide yardsale in the town that's south of us. I weaned the pigs a week ago and they are doing so good. They are very rambunctious (don't know how to spell that but its a fitting word). I caught each one of them this morning and each one of them squealed, no... more like screeched like a banchee when I first caught them. I was in the wrong venue to sell them though. I only sold one although lots of people liked them or wanted them. And they're not overpriced at all. But I was glad to have one less mouth to feed cause they are starting to eat alot more now. So 8 little piggies are left for now.
I watched Tyler Perrys 'Why did I get Married Too' movie last night. I have to say I'm a sucker for his films. I just love them! My favorite by far though is 'Diary of a Mad Black Woman'. For those of you who haven't seen it, it's really good (in my opinion).
I also talked to my mom last night and I'm kindof worried for her. She's in a bad housing situation with a younger girl who is very manipulative of her (relating to family, money etc). The situations not new, it's been going on for quite a few years. Her and this girl had it out due to a major money issue mom found out about and temporarily my mom is away from her and in a safe place. I just think my mom is going to try to go back and set limits and boundaries and be strong and it's not going to work. Even if it did, who wants to live like that? It just breaks my heart to see my mom like this and think about her quality of life right now. I'm just praying that she is strong enough to stay away. I wish she would come and live with me but I'm just a little too far out in the country for most people but I tried....
Well I just made myself some spaghetti with alfredo sauce and garlic bread. Healthy, right! haha
Thanks for the replies to my last post. Glad to know about the url changes for 2 of you. I like the idea of the blogging that is not so fertility focused and want to do more of that myself. Well tata for now!
Hello there!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
September already?!!?!!
Wow! It's been ages since I wrote last. This past month has flown by. Clinicals have started. I've gotten to do some pretty neat "nurse skills" during them. I really love learning and nursing is so complex. It seems like this semester things are starting to come together a little more for me as I am learning and understanding the process of nursing. I know I have a long way to go though.
On the infertility front I have been holding my own till these past couple of days. I am generally a pretty upbeat, positive person but every once in a while I really start to get down. I guess I can only take so much and then it starts to really get to me. For instance, my best friend is pregnant as I have mentioned in other posts. She is really starting to irk me lately. It's not just about the complaining about feeling bad during this pregnancy or the "getting fatter" (as she refers to it) but also her disregard for the fact that maybe I don't always feel like hearing about her pregnancy issues all the time.
While I'm at it, today was one of the most frustrating "not a pregnant girl" days I've had in a while. There are soo many pregnant girls at work. I've honestly lost count but I think it is like 5 now which is actually down a little because there were 7. One isn't working there anymore and the other finally had her baby. Well anyhoo, two out of these 5, both just found out they are having twins. One of the girls expecting twins is 12 weeks along and she just had her first baby in February. Must be nice to be that fertile! It sucks working where I work right now.....I swear I am SO tired of hearing "You'd better stay away from the water here or you'll be next" Heard that one again today and I responded as nicely as I could muster "I really don't think so- Nope!" As if that wasn't a big enough hint she continued "I don't know I think you could probably just stand next to some of them and get pregnant" I responded (again as nicely as I could) "Definitely not, it's just not that easy for some people" At this point she kindof got it but I had to respond to her again and basically spell it out....I haven't been on birth control in 6 years, I have something wrong with me and It's not going to happen without alot of money and a little time. Which right now I have neither unfortunately.
Anyhow, I'm done complaining - just had to get that off my chest and this is about the only place I can. On the opposite side of the plate, I wanted to say congrats to some of the people who have been trying to conceive and have finally made it! I've been catching up on blogs and was really wanting to say that is awesome. I don't know what happened to spermination stations blog..went there to catch up on her posts today and she is not there. Same goes for Jesstrying to Conceive.. Hope y'all are doing ok!
I'm going to watch a movie tonight and take it easy. Gonna cook up some food and enjoy! Have a great friday night everyone!
On the infertility front I have been holding my own till these past couple of days. I am generally a pretty upbeat, positive person but every once in a while I really start to get down. I guess I can only take so much and then it starts to really get to me. For instance, my best friend is pregnant as I have mentioned in other posts. She is really starting to irk me lately. It's not just about the complaining about feeling bad during this pregnancy or the "getting fatter" (as she refers to it) but also her disregard for the fact that maybe I don't always feel like hearing about her pregnancy issues all the time.
While I'm at it, today was one of the most frustrating "not a pregnant girl" days I've had in a while. There are soo many pregnant girls at work. I've honestly lost count but I think it is like 5 now which is actually down a little because there were 7. One isn't working there anymore and the other finally had her baby. Well anyhoo, two out of these 5, both just found out they are having twins. One of the girls expecting twins is 12 weeks along and she just had her first baby in February. Must be nice to be that fertile! It sucks working where I work right now.....I swear I am SO tired of hearing "You'd better stay away from the water here or you'll be next" Heard that one again today and I responded as nicely as I could muster "I really don't think so- Nope!" As if that wasn't a big enough hint she continued "I don't know I think you could probably just stand next to some of them and get pregnant" I responded (again as nicely as I could) "Definitely not, it's just not that easy for some people" At this point she kindof got it but I had to respond to her again and basically spell it out....I haven't been on birth control in 6 years, I have something wrong with me and It's not going to happen without alot of money and a little time. Which right now I have neither unfortunately.
Anyhow, I'm done complaining - just had to get that off my chest and this is about the only place I can. On the opposite side of the plate, I wanted to say congrats to some of the people who have been trying to conceive and have finally made it! I've been catching up on blogs and was really wanting to say that is awesome. I don't know what happened to spermination stations blog..went there to catch up on her posts today and she is not there. Same goes for Jesstrying to Conceive.. Hope y'all are doing ok!
I'm going to watch a movie tonight and take it easy. Gonna cook up some food and enjoy! Have a great friday night everyone!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Busy livin...
School is kicking my butt! I have been so extremely busy between working, reading, and driving the hour trip to school, I've not had much time for anything else. I'm not even gonna try to sign up for ICLW this month...I know its not possible.
Anyhoo, I am convinced that our home has recently been added to some kind of list for people who want to drop off animals. I got a home for the gray kitten I'd found and then I found another one...(can't remember if i told you about the new one or not and I'm to lazy right now to check). So, I have this new one and she is cute but I need to find her a home. Then tonight, a neighbor pulled in our driveway and his lights were shining on our front porch that we never use and sure enough...there was a little gold tabby kitten from out of nowhere!!! He is soo cute! But NOW i've got 2 kittens to find homes for. Don't know what I'm gonna do...
More about school...I got my bill paid. Hubby finally sold that dirt bike for much less than he should have just to get the money for my school. He's a gem! It's gonna be tough this semester though since I had to cut back at work... :(
I miss you all but hopefully I will be able to keep in touch a little better b/c today I got a "new" laptop from one of my moms friends (YAYYY!!!) It is great and is going to work at home and school so I'm super excited.
This is an awful post but I'll write again soon hopefully!
Anyhoo, I am convinced that our home has recently been added to some kind of list for people who want to drop off animals. I got a home for the gray kitten I'd found and then I found another one...(can't remember if i told you about the new one or not and I'm to lazy right now to check). So, I have this new one and she is cute but I need to find her a home. Then tonight, a neighbor pulled in our driveway and his lights were shining on our front porch that we never use and sure enough...there was a little gold tabby kitten from out of nowhere!!! He is soo cute! But NOW i've got 2 kittens to find homes for. Don't know what I'm gonna do...
More about school...I got my bill paid. Hubby finally sold that dirt bike for much less than he should have just to get the money for my school. He's a gem! It's gonna be tough this semester though since I had to cut back at work... :(
I miss you all but hopefully I will be able to keep in touch a little better b/c today I got a "new" laptop from one of my moms friends (YAYYY!!!) It is great and is going to work at home and school so I'm super excited.
This is an awful post but I'll write again soon hopefully!
Monday, August 9, 2010
School Approaching
School starts in a week!!! I'm so not ready to give up my freedom and go back to being chained to a book every night at home. I guess I will have to get used to it though as it is fast approaching. I'm also worried about the school bill. My classes are $1340 this semester. That may not seem like much but I'm paying as I go (which will rock once i'm done and have no school debt) and it is a lot to pay up front in one big chunk. I should say that I did get a scholarship and that will pay $500 of the bill for this semester so I'll only have $840 to come up with on my own....It's still alot for us right now. But I think we will have it sometime this week. The hubby, bless his heart, has a dirt bike for sale (in excellent condition) and also one of his trucks (yes we have a collection of vehicles per hubby). So, I think we have some people interested, hopefully they will buy this week.....it would be a big relief.
My mom and sister came over last night for one more cleaning fest before school starts. We got the other spare room cleaned this time. I set the bed up in case we ever have company or something and it looks alot better.
Had the weekend off and hubby was gone for half of it at a big fourwheeling campout. I watched Steel Magnolias and cried my eyes out! I forgot how sad and touching that movie was... But it was nice to have some down time and relax a little. I was really glad however when my hubs came home, I didn't realize how much I would miss him- even though it was only a night....i guess its true what they say "absence makes the heart grow fonder".
My mom and sister came over last night for one more cleaning fest before school starts. We got the other spare room cleaned this time. I set the bed up in case we ever have company or something and it looks alot better.
Had the weekend off and hubby was gone for half of it at a big fourwheeling campout. I watched Steel Magnolias and cried my eyes out! I forgot how sad and touching that movie was... But it was nice to have some down time and relax a little. I was really glad however when my hubs came home, I didn't realize how much I would miss him- even though it was only a night....i guess its true what they say "absence makes the heart grow fonder".
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Missing my friends
Ahhh!!! I'm so behind...stupid, stupid computers!!!! Mines still not working and thursday I tried to go to the library and they were closed for inventory or something. Then yesterday I was going to try after work to go again and I was asked to stay over till 5 or 530. So, by the time I got off work and called - the library was already closed. Ohhh..you gotta love a small town library! So, today I came to the next county over to use their library (which I rarely do). But the point in telling you all this is that I've missed you the last couple days. I haven't been able to get online at home, at all, as it take forever to load just one webpage and so I haven't even been able to keep reading other blogs....I feel so out of touch! So, once again I'm going to catch up. I feel like this is what I've said the past couple of times I've blogged...oh well!
Anyhoo, one of the preggo girls at work found out she was having a boy yesterday. It seems like it makes it that much more real when they find out what their having. And the preggo talk also seems to intensify because now that they know what they are having they talk about it that much more...making it that much harder for me. I already can't go through a day without hearing multiple pregnancy conversations (like breastfeeding or birthing stories etc) or hearing the woes of being pregnant ("I feel so sick to my stomach") Ughhh! I'm just sick of it this week. Jess left a comment on my last post about wondering what the purpose is in being IF. I have to admit, I wonder this as well....actually very often. I ask myself and God "what am I supposed to be learning?" "what are you trying to show me through this?" or "How can I grow and be a better person because of this struggle in my life?" Even when IF is not in the forefront of my mind, it is still swirling around in my thoughts. It is a daily battle I fight with....rising above and not falling prey to wollering in self pity. Thanks for your kind comments...they mean so much to me, hearing from everyone and having friends who understand. I've missed you guys! If you don't hear from me- you know what's going on...I haven't fell off the face of the earth...I will write again as soon as I can. Hugs to everyone :)
Anyhoo, one of the preggo girls at work found out she was having a boy yesterday. It seems like it makes it that much more real when they find out what their having. And the preggo talk also seems to intensify because now that they know what they are having they talk about it that much more...making it that much harder for me. I already can't go through a day without hearing multiple pregnancy conversations (like breastfeeding or birthing stories etc) or hearing the woes of being pregnant ("I feel so sick to my stomach") Ughhh! I'm just sick of it this week. Jess left a comment on my last post about wondering what the purpose is in being IF. I have to admit, I wonder this as well....actually very often. I ask myself and God "what am I supposed to be learning?" "what are you trying to show me through this?" or "How can I grow and be a better person because of this struggle in my life?" Even when IF is not in the forefront of my mind, it is still swirling around in my thoughts. It is a daily battle I fight with....rising above and not falling prey to wollering in self pity. Thanks for your kind comments...they mean so much to me, hearing from everyone and having friends who understand. I've missed you guys! If you don't hear from me- you know what's going on...I haven't fell off the face of the earth...I will write again as soon as I can. Hugs to everyone :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Tuesdays Troubles (and good things too)
Well, my computer is acting crazy again so once more, I'm at the library to write this post. I am still reading and staying up to date with all the gals I've added to my blog list. So, if I'm not commenting as much as usual it's mainly due to my computer, which keeps freezing when I'm using it. I'm not very "techy" at all and so although I'm learning alot from all these computer problems, it is very frustrating because it is a new problem every time I get the last problem fixed. UGH!!! I know some of you can relate with the computer problems.
Anyhow, tomorrow is a training day at school in preparation for our clinicals. We have to learn how to use the computer systems at the hospitals we will be going to before school starts. This summer has gone by WAY too fast! But at least I have the day off work (yayyy!!!)
Funny IF-related story from work the other day. My best friend (who I've mentioned is pregnant) got involved in a conversation with another pregnant girl at work. I've also mentioned that pretty many people know that I have IF issues even if they are unaware of the details. So..my friend told me that their conversation turned to me and my IF issues and the other girl said something to the effect of "Can't she just go to the doctor and pay $300 and get the meds and then she could get pregnant?" Apparently she had heard from someone the approximate price of one of my dr's visit (from when I went to the dr last time). My friend tried to tell her that the medication might not even work the first time and that it would probably end up being alot more than that in the end. When I heard the story, I laughed out loud...Obviously I don't expect people to know the ins and outs of infertility and its treatments but even before I ever had problems, I kindof knew that trying to have a baby like this wasn't cheap. I'm just glad that I heard this secondhand...It gave me time to process it and not immediately react to her. My preggo friend took up for me though and It was nice to know how much she cared.
Anyhow, tomorrow is a training day at school in preparation for our clinicals. We have to learn how to use the computer systems at the hospitals we will be going to before school starts. This summer has gone by WAY too fast! But at least I have the day off work (yayyy!!!)
Funny IF-related story from work the other day. My best friend (who I've mentioned is pregnant) got involved in a conversation with another pregnant girl at work. I've also mentioned that pretty many people know that I have IF issues even if they are unaware of the details. So..my friend told me that their conversation turned to me and my IF issues and the other girl said something to the effect of "Can't she just go to the doctor and pay $300 and get the meds and then she could get pregnant?" Apparently she had heard from someone the approximate price of one of my dr's visit (from when I went to the dr last time). My friend tried to tell her that the medication might not even work the first time and that it would probably end up being alot more than that in the end. When I heard the story, I laughed out loud...Obviously I don't expect people to know the ins and outs of infertility and its treatments but even before I ever had problems, I kindof knew that trying to have a baby like this wasn't cheap. I'm just glad that I heard this secondhand...It gave me time to process it and not immediately react to her. My preggo friend took up for me though and It was nice to know how much she cared.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Weekend of Work
I think this is the longest I've gone without posting since I joined up almost a month ago! It has been crazy busy the past couple days at work. I hate working weekends and it doesn't help that I feel burnt out on my job...I never take naps and for the past week, on quite a few occasions, I have taken short naps when I get home from work. I'm just SO sleepy.
Lets see, what else...I have been trying to keep the house clean...a task at which I can never seem to fully accomplish (sometimes not even partially accomplish). Yesterday I stripped the caulking from the bathtub and redid it. This was a first for me and although it's not great it HAS to be better than it was. It gave me a small sense of accomplishment and I felt like I had a superwoman cape on when finished.
Hubby has been working alot lately because he is on call almost all the time (not kidding-ALL the time, except his weekends off) and I miss him. :( I'm now halfway through Harry Potter book #3. Trying to get through as many of them as I can before school starts.
Other than that my life has been pretty dreary lately and I have to say theres not too much to report about. Now, I have to go catch up on reading about all you LOVELY people!!! Have a great night. :)
Lets see, what else...I have been trying to keep the house clean...a task at which I can never seem to fully accomplish (sometimes not even partially accomplish). Yesterday I stripped the caulking from the bathtub and redid it. This was a first for me and although it's not great it HAS to be better than it was. It gave me a small sense of accomplishment and I felt like I had a superwoman cape on when finished.
Hubby has been working alot lately because he is on call almost all the time (not kidding-ALL the time, except his weekends off) and I miss him. :( I'm now halfway through Harry Potter book #3. Trying to get through as many of them as I can before school starts.
Other than that my life has been pretty dreary lately and I have to say theres not too much to report about. Now, I have to go catch up on reading about all you LOVELY people!!! Have a great night. :)
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